Slip into Eternity to free yourself from depression

I do get into hopeless situations. Whatever I do, it is a failure. There is no reason to hold onto a hope that I will do better. I dont want to hope that I will be able to do better. I dont want to try anything. I am just a failure.

I am driven to a corner of despair.

Nothing makes me hopeful. Things look to be depressing.
You ask, why such failures to me only?

You slip into that mood. There is a pain because I am attached to these situations.

When such a depression mood takes over, I resign myself and get into my own space where I am not holding onto any hopes.

But I go on a different trip.

I see myself as a tiny point and going around. I view time to be cyclic. In the cyclic time, I imagine circling around it. I see myself going through it once. I see the same things repeating. I see the cycle repeating, 10 times. I go thru the situtation 10 times. I see the cycle repeating 1000 times. I see myself going thru the pain 1000 times.
I keep imagining the cycle repeating billion times. I also see myself going thru the situations billion times.

I see the cycle repeating on and on. I am a little point, travelling around the cycle of time. While circling on and on, I reach a stage, where I see what is happening is a routine. Its nothing new. Its is what it is. I feel detached. I feel separate from it. I am free. I feel the new liberation from the pain of association with those situations.